Is probably the singularly most unsettling thing to ever exist on the internet
You are lacking in confidence at the moment, most likely due to a sense that you may not achieve your immediate goals, whether professional or romantic. You are currently in a delicate state, having extended yourself into a new realm of experience, one which has not yet proven itself to be successful. A need for calm surroundings in which to strive for success is apparent.
Stress and difficulty are building up in you at the moment and they are wearing down your considerable reserves of strength. The current situation feels insurmountable and so you are close to changing course and avoiding the situation all together, which is not typical behavior. You desire a trusting and peaceful relationship and are not finding it.